What girls are made of by Elana K. Arnold

Reeling from a shameful breakup with a boy she unabashedly worshipped, Nina drifts between school and her days volunteering at a dog shelter. But she’s looking for something more. A way to fix her mistakes. Unsure of how to move on, Nina peels back the moments that have shaped her and given her a view of girlhood distorted by violence and sacrifice. One that lead her to do something unspeakable to a fellow student. 
As Nina grapples with regret, strange memories of a trip to Italy with her mother start to resurface. Layer by layer, as she reveals their painful effect and seeks redemption. Raw, emotional writing and a frank portrayal of the world of teenage girls set this award-winning book apart as a stunning chronicle of self-acceptance